For some time now I have been struggling with a very wicked addiction . I have almost got it beat ,- albeit with triggers, cravings, feeble minded excuses , and so on popping up everywhere. Over the last few weeks I have periodically been suffering from a powerful nerve agitation due to a ”double withdraw” from opiates and benzo – diazepam use for the last 15 years ago .
Last month I checked myself into a Detox here in Vancouver , and was in there for about ten days or so.
tox for over 20 years , and much has changed regarding group therapy , some have been discarded such as the mandatory 12 Step ”meetings” .
Rather than treating all patience as one ”collected entity” , they have began letting all residents do more or less what they wanted and thus have given addicts rather a time to think back in a retrospective way , – and really contemplate and give thought as to ones future course in life , – as they struggle into a greater measure of Light.
I am being monitored by Doctors who specialize in addictions of all sorts, and have been given medication to help as I learn to wean off these powerful addictions that has really mucked up my life .
I have as well experimented with mind altering plants that have provided me with very deep esoteric insights that I will forever cherish and meditate on ,- as they have led me onto the Path of Service , – selflessly given,- and it is this which has given so much meaning to life as I understand it.
I know the struggle will be long and hard. It will be along the lines of meditation , contemplation, and to exercise the spiritual virtue of becoming more de- centralised , thereby transcending the limitations of the lower carnal personality , becoming members of that growing inner group that tend as the stimulus revealing humanity’s potential for ”Greatness” .
Losing oneself in the service to others human needs ,-is indeed the best medicine that has kept me sane all these years ,- ..and all these years of human suffering have not made me to hate no living thing . As I have been told ; – ” Hate destroys the soul of anyone who tries to teach it ” -..this I know . –
The Divine Presence Within ALL men ,- The Born less One ”, Having no Beginning of Days , and no End of Days .
We all share a common bond within this Great , Living Being ,- that Being the Earth Itself ,..in which we live , move , and have our being. — This I know.- —
Through the activities of the New .Group. of World Severs ;- N.GW.S ;-
Working for this group has opened great vistas before me , SEEING Humanity as a whole with every man, woman and child taking on the responsibility for keeping the ecology clean and protected from those that would but molest , and commit dirty acts for personal profit.